Hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving.
This is a quick journal to inform you all of yet another hiatus. Although this one is not due to lack of time.
I have a lot to process at the moment, and I feel like all my senses are on red alert.

R.I.P.
Ralph "Bud" Squire, passed away 11/26/2009.
I love you grandpa.

Here are the manga I have for sale that have yet to be spoken for. Prices do not include shipping. I prefer Paypal, if you want to buy manga and Paypal doesn't work for you, we can figure something out. DO NOT COMMENT ON WHAT ONES YOU WANT. Send me a note telling me what you'd like to purchase. First come, first serve:

Shutterbox by Rikki Simons (voice of Gir from Invader Zim),(2) - $16
Absolute Boyfriend by Yu Watase (6, complete) - $40
Peacemaker Kurogane by Nanae Chrono (1) - $8
Juvenile Orion by Sakurako Gokurakuin (1) - $8
One Piece by Eiichiro Oda (1) - $8
Saiyuki by Kazuya Minekura (1) - $8
xXx Holic by Clamp (2) - $16
InuYasha by Rumiko Takahashi (7) - $50

If you want to purchase something from the list, note me what you'd like. They are roughly $8 a piece because they are all still in great condition. If you'd like proof, note me and I will photograph them for you.
Note me with what you'd like, and I will give a total with shipping included. I will send them when payment has been received.
This is to help me move out in a few months.
Hope you guys find some you may like!

~D~

I'm sorry to say that I'll be leaving Tristren and Lyla here next week when I go to my grandparents' house. I decided that there just wouldn't be much time to get pictures of them that would do them justice. That, and I found out today my cousin is going to be there and he picks on me enough as it is. It'll be easier for me to tease him about him playing a pink Hello Kitty guitar if I don't have my dolls there for him to tease me about.
Anyway, I'll try to get some pictures of them in the near future. School is going to be over in a few weeks so I have to finish up a project and all that before finals week. If nothing else, there will be pictures of them for Christmas.
Sorry guys. I miss them too.

~D~

Some of you that have seen my gallery know of my dog, Sydney. I rescued her from the shelter three and a half years ago, and she is my best friend. She is smart, obedient, and well behaved (most of the time).
She also does not get along with other dogs. She does fine with mine because they were here when I first brought her home. But if she is around other dogs, she gets defensive and doesn't let them anywhere near her.
I've tried working with her, I've called and emailed countless trainers trying to find someone that can help me teach her to not be so defensively aggressive towards other dogs. I just called one that comes highly recommended, only to have the trainer I spoke to compare the behavior of my dog to that of a criminal. I believe the exact words were "If a human is aggressive towards other humans, you don't socialize them to try and get them over it. They go to a correctional facility." aka prison.
That was one of my last options. Every single option I can think of keeps falling through. I'm losing hope of ever getting her over this.
I want to move out at some point, and take her with me. I want her to be friends with Aaron's dog, Apollo. But if I can't do anything to fix this problem, she'll have to stay behind. It will break my heart, and hers because she hates being separated from me. I don't want that to happen, but what else can I do when every professional I've gotten in touch with cannot help me?
There are two options left at my disposal, and they are long shots. I can either try to get her used to a muzzle, and use that to help me get her used to Apollo and be friends with him. That is risky.
Or, where I work has the number for a behaviorist. The chances of me going that route are slim, because it is expensive. I had planned on using the money I hope to make from my manga sale to move out soon, but if this is the only option I have, I may have to do that.
I'm at a loss, I feel hopeless, and I don't know what to do.
My parents asked what was wrong with me when I got home, and I just lost it and started crying. I haven't cried in years.
I don't like it.

~D~

Random update because I feel like it.
Yesterday afternoon at work was a rough one for me, and I'm trying to let it go. Almost there now. It just makes me angry and sad, and if I'm going to work in this field, I'm sad to say this won't be the first time I see something like this.
Despite the rough patches, I've noticed that for several months now it's a lot easier for me to put on a happy face. A few friends that know me personally are surprised when they see me now after not having seen me for months or years at a time, and it's kind of cool to see the surprise on their face.
Tomorrow I work all day but will have a chance to at least get a list up of the manga that will be for sale. I have yet to have any expressed interest in them, but I will post it regardless before I put them up on ebay in the future. I'll probably leave them for sale here in my journal until the Monday after Thanksgiving.
Well that's all. Just felt like writing a bit.
Here are a few titles I know off the top of my head that I will be selling:
DN Angel (3?)
Inuyasha (9?)
Ayashi No Ceres (10?)
Shutterbox (2)
xXx Holic (3?)
Saiyuki (1)
I'll update this list with prices and volumes sometime tomorrow.

Ja ne.
~D~